First post.

I'm just your normal not normal person. First of all I would like to bore you to death by talking about pickles. Now pickles... sorry, I'm boring myself to death.

WARNING: Stop reading if you hate random babblings... and stop reading if you hate grammatical errors--these aren't errors, this is my "style." ;)

Today I just need to pretend like I'm saying something important.

Life

Life is beautiful. A marvelous adventure with downfalls, saviors, fun, boredom, busy times when you forget what boredom was even like, family, friends, *enemies, love, days when it really feels like you cannot take anymore—and of course more happens, and then there are the days when life makes you want to sing for joy and have everyone you love have a great time with you.

*My definition of an enemy is anything Satan is trying to influence us for the worse with.

I'm glad for the trials in our lives. They help me learn how to do things better, have a greater ability to love others, and make joyful times that much sweeter.

I find that when I sit down and think...

...about it, it's hard not to love everyone. (I wish I had a picture of people more random than family...) So many people are trying their best to make it, others have given up hope—hopefully just to find something to inspire them again. People react to things differently, something you might find easy as pie might be the most difficult thing someone has ever had to face and overcome. I'm not sure why what has been happening has been happening. Maybe I'll find out, maybe I will forget that I wondered what the reasons were, maybe time will tell. I am ready to live and find out. ...The problem is... I am not that patient. I want to know now! Ahhhh! Are you that patient? If you are, you are my hero and I aspire to be like you in that aspect. (I say that aspect because although I have no doubt you are an amazing person—I embrace my individuality—what we are and what we become is the only thing we have ultimate control over... it is the only thing that we were not given when you think about). I love love love all the differences in life. I am so glad everyone thinks differently.

Random Picture:

Random Rant: It frustrates me when people misconstrue the truth. It bothers everyone, right? The part that irks me the most is when people put certain individuals on pedestals thinking that their lives are perfect. NO ONE'S LIFE IS “PERFECT.” Why cannot we get that in our heads? The reasons we might think they are perfect? Well, maybe the good things in their life are advertised so much that the bad is forgotten. I have a pet peeve of people that barely know me acting like I have a perfect life, sorry for the blast of rawr.

When I say no one's life is perfect, I mean that everyone's life is perfectly imperfect. I mean, I would feel sorry for anyone who had a “perfect” life. Eeuw. They could not enjoy anything with the relish those who have felt the burden of hardships can. They also could not progress in life.

Another Random Picture:

(I LOVE this girl!)

If anyone has read this far, kudos! My attention span usually does not let me get this far. I fear my attention span has been waning more and more in recent years. I struggle to read a book I love. I cannot just sit, think, enjoy a moment... It's lame. Too many things just... happen. It is something I need to practice more rigorously.

I hate the lost feeling...

I hate the lost feeling that comes with everything that happens. Like not knowing what the right thing to do is. I like doing the right thing. Despite that, even when I do know what the right thing to do is, sometimes it is hard to do it right away. Healing time is vital, I wish people would not push getting over things right away so much. It usually just makes things worse.

Getting over things in a timely fashion is good—not dragging it out—but letting yourself find a moment to breath and ponder before letting go of something is crucial to truly getting over something, forgiving anyone involved, (the hardest to forgive always seems to be yourself, so you really screw yourself over if you do not allow yourself the time and space to get over something)

“When things go wrong, as they sometimes (usually) will,

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are low & the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest, if you must—but don't you quit.”

--Unknown

Have you ever heard the song “You Always Make me Smile” by Kyle Andrews? You need to listen to it and I hope it makes you smile :) Dance and be happy, have a marvelous day. Heavenly Father loves you, I love you, and there is no doubt in my mind that more people than you realize love you as well.

Blogging is not my forte, but I am finding that I enjoy it. Maybe I will blog more often.